catching a glimpse of myself in the mirrored surface of my phone, canted just so, I see someone surprisingly unfamiliar. I remember a moment in my 20s when I looked into the mirror after washing my face, and saw myself, really *saw myself* for the first time. As I looked into my own eyes, I… Read More
on the way home today, a day early, uncomfortable with all choices (staying, going)… I was near enough home so I decided to turn up a never traveled road, and drive by a place that may soon become a frequent destination. In my mind I knew where the road went– up the steep hill past… Read More
Sitting by the open window in the cool morning air, letting birdsong and thoughts wash through and by….I found an accidental stillness. I sat long enough and still enough that a bird came and sat on the sill, casting long shadows and singing close enough to touch. Even now, four water droplets sparkle on pine… Read More
today is about being wide open I am traveling today, and there is something so cleansing for me to be in motion like that–I am someone who does not mind driving most of the time up a hill, along a stream for a while, past fields and forests, through suburbs then grazing the bottom of… Read More
For the 30 seconds you usually take to read this post, I invite you to take a moment and just breathe. See if you can reconnect to where you are in this moment. Feel your breath move in, and move out. No need to change anything, just witness your breath coming and going, creating miracles.… Read More
one of the lessons of this lifetime for me is to become comfortable with not knowing. I like knowing. I like, at least, thinking that I know or might know soon. I like taking action toward knowing- collecting, investigating, cogitating, distilling, proposing, assembling, considering…. I like feeling like I know (or might soon know) what… Read More
Yesterday’s gentle intention was met with immediate universal tests of my resolve– unexpected and provocative information coming in about this BIG TOPIC and that one….things that have been consuming my attention, that I’d finally given myself permission (an edict) to let rest for the moment. I watched myself rise up in a swirling mass of… Read More
today my full intention is this: to be present in each moment, and call myself back gently each time I run ahead with worry about the future near or far, or find myself drawn into the mire of memory or regret or rehash … my focus here is mindfully twofold: intention recognizing this will be a… Read More
I think there is something to this process, of dismantling, of needing to come to a full halt and reconsider it is as if it is a necessary part of the journey the impasse the moment when you realize you cannot go back, but are not ready (do not have all you need) to go… Read More
so I realized I am choosing to complicate my life setting deadlines rushing towards shoulds of my own making feeling increasingly sporadically frantic, like I am not going to make it on time, when, it’s true, I am just simply not. so here’s the big question: so what? I never asked myself, so what? or… Read More
