I run past my edge sometimes, and stumble sometimes, wondering what happened
past the edge of what I can handle
past what I need
past what I want
and not in a I AM DOOMED way, just onto the thinner ice that says with an ominous crack, whoa sister, lie down and ground yourself, wide and low…
so today, I realize, having stumbled beyond my edge, my body aching with the weight of a new viral attacker, that I need to lie down, ground myself, wide and low, in toast and tea and reading. I cannot stuff myself into do do do, go go go production mode, or creation mode, or acute attention mode… it will not work and I will wear myself out trying. instead, I am taking the cues, however late in the game, to slow down, lie down, stop trying and striving for at least a little while. At least as much as a 3 year old will allow.
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may I be well
may I be happy
may I be at peace
may we all be well
may we all be happy
may we all be at peace
