watching my 2 and a half year old in the midst of a tantrum i find myself imagining the immediacy of such emotional experience to allow myself to be taken over by emotion is one of my biggest fears and yet, there she is, full on, fully expressing, fully experiencing, and then the clouds part… Read More
the smell of cinnamon baking and I am back, instantly, in a kitchen in connecticut, with a butcher block table made by my dad and grandpa with a lip cut to fit the clamp of the bread mixer, a height just for kneading, and a shelf underneath for the milk cans I am back to… Read More
today, for me, was about wanting simplification no. it wasn’t. it was about overt and covert knee jerk “complexification” it was about too muchness and not enoughness it was about too little time, too many things on the do list, on the expected, on the communicated, on the committed list it was about stupid food… Read More
news of losing Papa came early this morning… led me back to wondering about death in a new way about stardust, the true stuff of which we are made, these magnificently complex boney and fleshy vehicles and vessels… and the moment when energy releases back into the universe Share This:
So, what is there to fear about fear?* _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ what came up for you in that space? My response in instant: I fear the paralysis of fear, the overtaking if my ability to think clearly, feel clearly, overtaken by a circling crazy of ohmygod. I fear the retreat.… Read More
for the first time in 3 years, I gave my weight over to the water a crystal clear lake in New Hampshire, surrounded by hillsides- no motors, no houses, just quiet. I turned my back on the shore and felt myself just held there, not stiffly or motionless, not at all– fluid, dynamic, buoyed…suspended…as weightless… Read More
My little one and I were out early this morning, getting in some stimulation and people watching (her need, not mine) before it got too hot. As we left the store, we noticed an airplane relatively low overhead, and I remembered that there was a small plane airport nearby. Off we went, armed with a… Read More
this is not about being someone else this is about being you. this seems simple, right? but how many of us get caught up in the tangled web of who we thought we should be, or who other people thought we should be? how many of us have taken paths, maybe even wonderful productive exciting… Read More
what if, for this moment, we consider what freedom can mean don’t stop at the first thing that comes to mind, keep digging. take this personally. what could freedom look like to you? freedom from limiting or energy consuming habits or relationships? from negative self talk? from procrastination? from saying “I can’t”? from taking the… Read More
I invite you to join me these next few days, within all the fireworks and hoopla, to witness moments of quiet in between in between the parties or the driving or the have-tos and shoulds and oughts… in between the getting there and getting back after the big booming crashes, as the ashes fall slowly… Read More
